one nation under god?

while watching jesus camp, jon says: "do you think george bush actually believes in god?"
we agreed on no.
but he is building quite the army of christian fundamentalists, isn't he?
none of whom are ranked in the upper class (indoctrinate the poor).
all of whom think that george w is one great christian.
all part of the master plan to merge church and state.
build the army, starting with young soldiers.
and we're back on the discussion of good intentions and the ideology behind missionary work.
these people think they're preaching the word of the lord, the right word.
it is their mission to help people believe in what is right.
they want nothing less for our children.
it is true: the path to hell is indeed paved with good intentions.

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the gospel according to narnia

conversations in a hospital #1

(first character to be read in the voice of Bruce the performance artist from Family Guy)

- so you can see what's going on with me (in the hospital~m.), tell me what's going on with you
- i listened to the opera today
- oh how nice. which one?
- la boheme. when pavarotti was in his prime.
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- and television, well, there was never really anything on it anyways.
- only for the news...and i watched the canadian skating championships today
- oh that'd be nice
- it's getting quite exciting because of the upcoming olympics. Jeff Buttle lost it to a newcomer Chan. he's only 17
- heavens!
- it was nice but Chan didn't impress me much
- ohhh. did it lack lustre?
- it was a stunning performance. very clean. it just lacked stillness.
- my lord. what happened to Buttle?
- i was more impressed by his performance actually, but he made very two important technical errors.
- oh darn.

managing online identities

this is why i hate sites like facebook. as if we're not fucked up enough trying to manage our real selves.

maybe it's just the interweb i hate. it's like a choose your own adventure book.
i hated those books when i was a kid.
i always felt like i'd miss a piece of the story, so i used to keep my fingers placed at every possible choice so i could always go back and make sure i never missed an option. then i would read the book from cover to cover in a linear fashion and put the story pieces together in my head.
it used to drive me nuts!
i feel like that's the way most websites are. thank goodness firefox has tabs. usually after a foray into the world wide web i have like 20 freakin tabs open for all the possible links elsewhere.
it's gotten kind of crazy.
here's wishing for a simpler online life.

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Music to my ears: futuristic '70s synth soundtrack while watching Logan's Run

crazy going slowly am i, 123456, switch

sometimes i feel like i have so much in my head that i can't organize my thoughts. it's no wonder i have a problem articulating them.
this year is like peeling off an old layer of skin, but in one gigantic piece, like a really good sunburn.
i feel like i've been completely fucked up for the last little while. i thought, and sometimes still think, that i've been going crazy. but what really is crazy?
a lot of time crazy is mistaken for retarded. it's a common mistake. i think.
i'm a little disjointed. like arms and legs moving at different times, but mostly my brain synapses being delayed at the source or something. i'm not even making sense.
being coherent has never been one of my strong points. as long as i know what i'm thinking in my head. which scares me at the same time.

ps - there will be blood is a wicked ass movie. daniel-day lewis has always been a favourite of mine and now i'm thinking he's a veritable god among men. that and p.t. anderson is somewhat of a genius...capitalism and salvation...it's always about salvation.