notes from an existentialism class: I

existentialism.
existent.
exist.
ist=latin verb=to be.
that which is. that which stands. to stand.
existence=to stand out.
how we exist in the world.
we can choose the actions that shape ourselves.
a human ability.
even if animals could ask these kinds of questions, would we understand?
existentialist thinkers tried to show others to accept they are free.
to free people from illusion.
missionary work.
(this is what got socrates in trouble. when people try to free other people, this is what happens)
the object of mood is mood itself.
when i'm seeing, can i see myself seeing?
what does it feel like to feel?
this is what it means to be conscious.
what it really means to exist.
for you. for me. for self.
to find a truth that is true to me.
to understand myself. find what is true for me. the idea of what i am.
(what good is it to construct meanings if it has no deeper significance for my life?)
reality is subjective.
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despair vs doubt.
all of us experience despair. nobody can say they never had the chance to feel this feeling.
nobody is exempt from despair.
therefore it is a choice. you can choose it.
doubt is a quality of the intellect. an intellectual advantage.
some never have the chance to learn doubt.
everyone has the ability to choose. not choosing despair doesn't mean you're not feeling despair.
my failure to choose it means i'm living in a shallow state of consciosness.
choice = awareness of conscience.

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Music to my ears - Queens of the Stone Age - Lullabies to Paralyze
Food for thought - Basic Writings of Existentialism - Gord Marino
In reality - R.I.P Paul Croutch